It sucks trying to forget somebody you knw you NVR will. Each time everything is abt to burn out of my memory, it stirkes repeatedly. Stop playing me stupid memories. I srsly hate getting over a matter/person.Cause if its a person, i knw myself too well that i wont ever be that close to that person anymore.Its a natural reaction frm the heart that when someone hurts you so damn deeply you would not still approach him/her ever agn cmon la no human being loves the feeling of your own heart being stampled on repeatedly.Not unless you're a fool of the century to think that '' oh yeah he/she hurt me once, a lesson should have been learnt, this will prolly be the first & the last time'' I srsly wonder which fool thinks lidat. its either you've burned your brain cells or smth.Some memories are better gone then present in your life to devour your energy.The memories ALWAYS occupy 3/4 of your thoughts which makes it harder to erase it off?It sucks even more when you're in the midst of getting over everything, you rmber the happy times, the times the other party helped you through your difficult times, you feel like holding on to everything, but not thinking that everyth's alr over & done with & the other person is prolly alr on their way to forgetting you or have alr moved on to other friends?It sucks when you've gone to the point of hating the person you once knew so well & nothing's gonna save you frm the fall & a ''sorry'' could no longer solve your situation.I always constantly think that if I do know a person in & out, it's enough to make your friendship or whtver work out well. but no it doesn't. '' If this was a movie, you'd prolly be here by now, but it ain't a movie, its reality. '' on to my life now. boring life.use com & sleep & eat & sleep. nothing else i do!not even slacking this few days. -.- sian like shit. can't seem to be bothered with anything since school started this term.everyday's so tiring. :( everyday's screwed. but IM GONNA TRY THE DOUBLE HARD TO MAKE MY LIFE FREAKING BETTER.but exam's approaching.like in one month's time, but it looks like everybody's busy ''chiong-ing'' like they're on a battlefield they've gotta conquer. but oh well, ya exam's a battlefield & the questions are to be conquered.( stupid explaination I knw, out of boredness luh).after exams,I'm gonna go crazy like I've nvr been before! pure madness yknw. so decided that i'll stop using the com that often anymore,which means bye to blogging everyday. prolly return on friday night or sat aft/evening then!right now i feel like heading down town!!! like really!! but im home. ( okay this is stupid):\ napfa( or whtver you spell it) is tmr! wish me luck k. ^^ & i already xia ding jue xin to NOT slack when im doing it. cause usually im a lazy person. hehehehhe. okay i'm done. BYE^^. keep my formspring alive. :( ![]() when you've forgotten someone, don't ever trace back your footsetps, cause you'll realise the sight of them irks you more then anything.
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