Life was never fair more people always left then stayed behind. People were always curious over concerned & some hurt more than everyone else. Hate doesn't get lesser it festers. Liars hurt themselves more than they intended to hurt the other party. People tear till the point they've got no more tears just to express what they really feel in reality. school days are nothing special for me just doing my normal routine of going to school & heading back home to sleep right after that. just that worn out feeling everyday without fail, headaches & pure crap stuffs.spent my saturday w Joy & today church in the morning & head back had my lunch & just slept through the whole afternoon till now. I swear Im so fucking tired to go school tomorrow anymore. The feeling when I don't know what's wrong & feeling everything's wrong but there's no exact cause of it. Somedays i wanna escape it all. Somedays i wished there was a loophole. Somedays i feel the hate manifesting. Somedays i feel alone. Somedays i feel as though im not alive. Somedays i just want to shout out all my problems. & im just so fucking sick & tired. I don't wanna masquerade I just wanna be really happy for just awhile just one moment to relief the growing anger inside or just a moment to express what i really feel rather then always saying im fine or perhaps im just scared of how people would judge just like they always did.
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