My everyday life issues. 

No.1: I think that my personality is flyingfuckingscrewed. & sometimes i feel so bad about it. my parents did & definitely teach me properly ok, but the way i treat people & bring myself out is a totally different thing like the exact opposite? yet, it's so hard to change. aiya if so easy change won't have convicts who commit crimes twice right? or there wouldn't even be second chances. but, second chances is kanasai one la ppl don't give second chances, quotes are bullshits.

No.2: I need to work, I'm always spending!!!! & it's getting out of control. Last week which was the just start school week aye? I spent more than $280 on clothes online just by tracking my bank account excluding for some my mum bought for me. Can you fucken imagine someone not working yet spending money every fucking second of their life like their parents print money???!!!! BUT I WAS SUPER FUCKING STRESSED. ok la quite good excuse right? -comforting myself like one insane bitch-

No.3: I think I'm biopolar. My brother says so. I can be like a person on drugs & then go about with a sulking face? Sometimes i ask ppl to shutup for no reason. no apologies everything seems like they owe me. srsly there's smth so wrong w me.

No.4: I have a phone but I don't reply texts. There's text messages I have yet to reply since last week, two days ago, one day ago. IT'S SO FUCKEN HARD TO TRACK TEXTS AFTER YOU'VE CLOSED EM. I will only call the person if it's urgent matters. Or reply if i wanna talk to them. This clearly explains why Vanessa & Shannon always go " TEXT YOU NO USE ONE LAAAAA, WON'T REPLY ALSO."

No.5: My attitude towards things be it my homework, teachers or towards the world is purely negative. To me, there's no such thing as " oh the world is so beautiful stop to take in the scenery " srsly? only idiots can sing the same tune, not me, no offense.

No.6: I'm constantly thinking if only i was born in this particular place with this & that, my delusional thoughts la which obviously doesn't get me anywhere better? But anyway, if i were to be in another place i would be another memory. *still, secretly hoping & praying god sends me to a better place someday*

No.7: I don't like to go school, i mean i actually used to enjoy it except one day, i no longer believe in chasing after your dreams or whatsoever. DREAMS DOESN'T= REALITY. those primary school talks about shitty things like "believe in yourself". load of shittalks, so what if you believe in yourself? the world will take your dreams & crush it anyway.

No.8: I'm bitter & sad everyday, I FUCKING ADMIT. I don't see the point in being happy, being happy is always gonna be a temperamental thing to me, it's non-permanent. SO WHAT IF YOU LIVE SUCH SHORT LIVES SO YOU MUST BE HAPPY & MAKE THE BEST OUT OF IT ETC? everyday you work like one fucking bull ploughing fields to yield the harvest or maybe worst than one yet you expect yourself to be happy? no such thing.

I'm gonna have random regular updates from now on, hehe stay tuned!!!! GOODNIGHT, XOXO.